A decision has been made

    As of last night I had an acceptance letter from the University of Utah, supportive parents, a plan, the best room mates and out of who knows where the thought that I needed to stay at Dixie. The one time my parents were saying I should go up to the U my heart was telling me to stay home? What is this?!Of course I fought off the urge, I called my cousin and had her convince me the U was going to work out great, I told her I don't want to go to Dixie so she helped me realize that I could handle working my way through college and all that jazz. She gave me some really nice advice that I was so grateful for. It's the greatest feeling knowing that I have so many amazing people rooting for me. I can't tell you how often my family told me I COULD when I said I couldn't. They helped me realize that I do have worth, potential and that not everything is about having a 4.0 and a high ACT score. They helped me realize that I can be successful and live a great life and have my dreams come true. Thats why the U was going to work, because they helped me to find the determination to be able to do so and I'm sure I would have had the ultimate experience. 

     But for some reason which I may never know I felt completely uneasy about the whole thing, I figured it was just the nerves but it was more then that. I couldn't sleep and if you know me thats not normal, I'm kind of a grandma. I woke up with my mind screaming at me "go to Dixie". MULTIPLE TIMES! I was so irritated because I have the hardest time making decisions in the first place and I did not want to change my plan this late in the game! This was not helping. As I was laying in bed I kept telling myself that it wasn't the spirit it was just my mind. But yet it kept screaming at me. Yeah..so much for that still small voice right? The thought kept coming into my head that there is a reason I need to stay. Why though? I have been completely against staying, the thought used to make me sick to my stomach so why is it now that the thought of staying brings me to complete ease and peace? I decided to leave it alone but in first period I ended up telling my friend Steph about the whole ordeal. As I was telling her I confirmed to myself that I am going to Dixie. But the weird thing is I am so so so happy about my decision! This is the first time I've ever felt like this in my life. I couldn't help but feel so happy and bubbly today. Everything is falling into place. I may be giving up the college experience I have dreamt about but I feel 100 percent confident that I am going to have the opportunity to have different experiences that I never imagine. Who knows what the Lord has in store for me. Hopefully it will equal in me going to Africa or Peru and working with the little children. But with the pattern of me having a plan and it changing it is likely to be something I've never thought of or more likely something I have said I will never do in a million years. All I have to say is it better not be something like I'm going to meet my husband right away..if thats the case then Heavenly Father and I are going to have to have quite the chat. I can't explain how much gratitude I feel right now and although the Lord may have been pulling on my heart strings for a while I feel great and life is wonderful. Next step..Hope I get the job I'm applying for..and oh I don't know. Maybe APPLY to Dixie?!