jflkdsjflsdjflksdjfkla

That is how my head feels right now! I can't make a dang decision for the life of me. When we go out to eat my mom always laughs at me because I get torn on what to order. I make simple decisions big decisions, so when it comes to the big decisions I feel like it's a matter of whether I am going to happy or miserable for the rest of my life. Last year when I had to decide what school to go to I thought it would be the last time I'de be making a big choice I wasn't certain about. Who knows where I got that idea?! This past week I've been so conflicted with not knowing what I want to do. I make up my mind about one thing and the next day a new opportunity comes along and everything I've decided goes back up in the air. I hate the knot I get in my stomach and how I don't know if it's out of fear or if it's a sign I shouldn't do something. I hate how I will get really excited and certain that I have made my mind up but then a few hours later I change my mind again. I also hate that since highschool the logic part of my brain is starting to work (yeah I know it's a good thing but it's still annoying). But the more I think about it the more I realize how lucky I am to have these opportunities! Although it might seem hard it's pretty exciting that I'm at a point in my life where I'm able to do what I want! Well anywhoosies I figure since I'm going to be faced with choices my whole life I may as well jot down a few words of advice from myself now for myself in the future.

• Don't let big decisions cause me agony, just make a choice and see what happens. If I don't like the outcome than make some changes.
• God trusts our judgement (thanks kort) He's not always going to give me an exact answer, I just need to make a decison and if it's not right than he will let me know. 
• Whatever I choose to do it is not going to be the end of the world! Things have a way of working out.
• Remember that life is to be enjoyed not just endured, if it's something that is going to make me happy than it's worthy of my time. 
• Never feel to old to talk to mom and dad and seek their advice 
• The course of our lives is not determined by great, awesome decisions. Our direction is set by the little day-today choices which chart the track on which we run."- Gordon B. Hinckley
• No matter what my fear might be, don't let it get the best of me.

This Summer I'll either be here

 or here 

 Either way I'm one lucky human and my cup just keeps overflowing with blessings.

{This song makes me feel excited about life.. and it reminds me of Alaska}